LIFE IS HARD! It doesn't have to be, but sometimes we just make it that way. This month has been an especially challenging one for me. We have had a lot of things going on. Chris is really busy with getting his new lawn care business going and has been working super late hours and long weeks. I am a really needy when it comes to affection and like to be noticed and appreciated so I get my feathers ruffled easy when things are hectic. My business is doing well but is not quite on auto pilot and in order to make money you have to work so I feel like my priorities have been a little out of whack. I feel like the rope in the middle of a tug of war. My son spends more time with other people than he does with his parents, my house is always trashed because we are always on the go and I never buy groceries cause we don't ever make time to eat and I throw most of it out! AAHHH... Trying to balancing everything is making my brain hurt. I think too much, I talk too much, I care about other people too much and it sucks me in and drains my energy, and I try to hard to be perfect. I don't take enough time to smell the roses and all the while I am missing all the fun. Keldon will be 1 this Saturday.
That is right 1 years old....already. I know!
Am I who I want to be?
I'm I doing the best I can?
What is missing?
I wish my family was closer and that reality didn't hurt so bad.
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Motherhood is hard hey? There are so many days I'm left wondering if I've done my best. I guess all I can do is try. Hang in there!
Happy 1st birthday Keldon!!
I know you care about other people and that you feel bad that you can't really help. Just remember that someday you will be blessed for your efforts.
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