Taking time off

Updates schmupdates... Okay this will be fast. I have pretty much abandoned my job as a massage therapist for the month of August. I have done like 3 massages in 2 weeks and will probably only work a little in the next month. I have been spending most every day from early morning to late night at my parents house. My goal, along with being a nurse to my mom is to organize her pictures and the house, de-junking stuff while she is still here to help me. I am realizing more and more each day how much I am going to miss her. I was making raspberry jam the other day and zucchini bread and I had to ask her like 10 questions to make sure I was doing it right. I keep telling myself it will be hard to take time off of work but I have my whole life the work and have a family and I will probably only have a few weeks left with my mom. I have been updating her blog so I have sort of been ignoring my own. Moms blog is http://mymomsfight.blogspot.com/. I have new pictures and updates more frequently. I need to take a picture of my receiving blankets she is making me. The other day I went to Jo Ann fabrics and bought some material for receiving blankets. I bought for different sets and asked her if she felt up to it just to surge them together so one day when I have babies I will at least of something from my mom. She got one done and then got really sick. Maybe this weekend I can finish them, they are really cute. Anyway.... this is sort of a lame update, but lately I have been sort of lame.. :)

Marriage Lessons

I was going through pictures I have taken lately and came across these lovely photos of my husbands summer projects. The tar looking blobs are are actually Chris's attempt to bake white chocolate macadamia nut cookies. I was sleeping and they were in the oven for about 4 hours! The fire alarm didn't even go off and when I woke up the house smelled horrible and he wasn't even home because he left, evidently forgetting his sweet-tooth. The rest are random pictures of his new project of making biodiesel fuel. He is getting used vegetable oil from restaurants and converting it into fuel you can actually use in a diesel car (via some crazy and very scary process that is being done in my KITCHEN on what use to be my table and on my favorite big counter top)
From all of this I think the lord is trying to help me understand the following principals and lessons in marriage:
Lesson 1:Love your husband despite.....
The fact that he has almost burnt the house down. (more than once)
Lesson 2: Appreciate what you have...
at least you have a roof over your head you spoiled brat!
Lesson 3: It is not always about you, you, you and what you want want want!...
Some day when you save enough money to buy a house, you can have your kitchen and he can have his shop.
Lesson 4: Appreciate your husbands work ethic......
Although, he does come home late on occassion he works hard so you can play hard.
Lesson 5: Just love him.....
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves."

Update on the drama of life

I am anti-blog so sorry, life is throwing curve balls that I can't catch and I am not too excited about them. My moms cancer is back and has spread to her some of her bones. She is not doing very well so things have been a little hectic on that end. I am not doing any better with my blood sugar deal. I don't actually have a diagnosis yet and have been struggling to find and answer. I think a lot of it is stress with my moms illness but know that it started long before her diagnosis. I am constantly getting blood tests done and as far as right now all they know is that my potassium is low, my ana titer count is high which is a marker for autoimmune disease (when your body attacks its own cells) and my c-peptide levels are sometimes up and sometimes down, and my insulin is on the higher end. My endocrinologist is checking for lupus and type 2 diabetes and I have more blood tests that will be back in 10 days. So far I have had a Gastric Emptying study done, blood work, an ultrasound, 24 hour holter monitor, 4 hour fasting glucose test and next week will have a CT scan and the following week have an endoscopy and colonoscopy. They did give me nexium to try for the nausea so we will see if that helps. I am still on a strict low carb diet, no dairy, eggs and super low sugar. Bring on the veggies and cashews eh? On the happier end on things. We are going to Twin Lakes next week after my test for a few days and my sister Sherri is coming to visit my mom. It will be nice to get away from life. I am really sad that cancer and illness seems to be everywhere now days, it seems like everybody is sick! My good friends mom from massage school just found out she had a brain tumor and had it removed. It came back cancerous, one of the most common and most aggressive. They were able to remove most of it. Thank goodness for modern technology. Every time I catch myself complaining I think, you should be thinking this.... instead. With her, I think, that sucks that she went from having symptoms to getting a stage 4 diagnosis in 4 weeks! At least I have had almost a year to be with my mom. I feel so overwhelmed sometimes its hard to be positive and grateful but how else do you get through it right? GGGGRRRRRR. One day at a time right? I am going to keep on truckin